Sometimes I feel weak.
OK I feel weak most of the time.
This may sound like a bad thing but the truth is; this is a great place to be. As a: church planter/pastor, as a husband, as a father, as a friend, as a man of God, I constantly have to face my short comings. I must daily accept that I can't seem to live up to my expectations of myself. I am too selfish, too stubborn, too angry, too self-critical or too self-righteous to be the man I want to be (to be the man God wants me to be.)
In his second letter to the Corinthians, Paul, shares about his weakness. He talks about a thorn in his side that keeps him humble. He tells us in 2 Corinthians 12:8 that he prayed three times for God to remove this thorn. (I don't know about a thorn but I seem to be covered with a thorn bush. I also have prayed more times than I can count for God to remove these thorns.)
Paul goes one and tells us that God responded, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness."
In my weakness there is grace, in my weakness there is power, in my weakness there is HOPE. It is in my weakness that I understand the depth of my sin. It is here that I see the great mercy of a perfect, holy God that chooses to love me, to save me, to sustain me. It is only through His love that I can find victory.
Like Paul, I will boast in my weakness. Not because I am proud of my shortcomings but because it is in my shortcomings that I most clearly see God at work in my life. "For when I am weak, then I am strong." 2 Corinthians 12:10c
